...and probably does a fair job of describing her:
Last week I downloaded a course on C. S. Lewis from The Great Courses. It's a good, solid overview and I recommend it. (Hey, it's still on sale! $16) In about the third lecture the guy mentions that you can't get outside of yourself to see what you are really like, you need someone else for that - like a psychotherapist. In my case, I really do, because I hide who I really am all the time, because I'm trying to get along. No disagreements, no fighting. This isn't news to me.
I didn't entertain the thought of therapy for long, it's expensive, but thru a series of prompts that I just obeyed without thinking, the Holy Spirit lead me to the above. (I love Him, I really do. Nobody sticks with me like He does.) So, now I have a little more light on the subject, and perhaps I get a little more release from my chains.
The chains must be feeling the threat, however. This morning in my dreams I had gone on a holiday to a resort town with a large train complex. People would arrive on lovely trains (me, too) and stay in these lovely hotels, shop, see the beautiful mountains, you know - relax.
Mother came, too.
I went looking (running) for the front desk to at least find another room to stay in so I could have a moment's peace, and couldn't find it - and kept running and running and running looking for it.
Heh. ;) I'm still in the fight, and I WILL have my peace.
So then, back to work.